As some of you know, I have realy be struggling at work recently due to a whole raft of issues. What I thought was going to be a relatively simple job to see me out to December, has turned into something that is affecting my entire life.
After talking to family, mentors, fellow staff and taking time out to think about what I want and what I am feeling, I have decided, it is in my best interest and the best interest of the children in my class that I take some time out from teaching. I have handed in my notice, broken my contract for the first time in my life and I feel awful, but I also feel relieved at the same time. I am more than happy to ask for help when I need it and to admit when I am out of my depth. I did both of these things and, unfortunately, nothing changed for me. The stress began to affect my home life until work was all I could think about and anxiety crept in. This decision is something I forced myself to consider from all angles and for a long time. I am not someone who likes to leave things undone or disappoint anyone and so it is with regret I pass on these complicated little beans to someone who is a little more fresh and can see them out for the rest of the year. I try to remind myself that time and space are healers and to always look up- I am blessed in so many ways and I can't let difficulties blind me to that fact. I appreciate the support I have recieved from all over the place, truly. Hopefully, once I rebuild my confidence in myself and my teaching I will dive back in but for now, I will keep thinking positive, keep my chin up and lean on those who love me the most.
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So, I did it. I caved to the pressure of life and I have decided to take on a full time classroom position. I'm local, so it's all good but it is a stage 3, composite Year 5/6 class in a demountable classroom out the back of a school... where no one can hear you scream... I have kids with behaviour issues, disabilities and two that are considered 'needing extension' and are working at a year 7/8 level. Talk about taking on a challenge!
I can do it, though and it will certainly help me pay off this credit card debt faster. Plus, there are some super sweet girls who just love Harry Potter. I sense I have an 'in' with them already. Wish me luck! |
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