As some of you know, I have realy be struggling at work recently due to a whole raft of issues. What I thought was going to be a relatively simple job to see me out to December, has turned into something that is affecting my entire life.
After talking to family, mentors, fellow staff and taking time out to think about what I want and what I am feeling, I have decided, it is in my best interest and the best interest of the children in my class that I take some time out from teaching. I have handed in my notice, broken my contract for the first time in my life and I feel awful, but I also feel relieved at the same time. I am more than happy to ask for help when I need it and to admit when I am out of my depth. I did both of these things and, unfortunately, nothing changed for me. The stress began to affect my home life until work was all I could think about and anxiety crept in. This decision is something I forced myself to consider from all angles and for a long time. I am not someone who likes to leave things undone or disappoint anyone and so it is with regret I pass on these complicated little beans to someone who is a little more fresh and can see them out for the rest of the year. I try to remind myself that time and space are healers and to always look up- I am blessed in so many ways and I can't let difficulties blind me to that fact. I appreciate the support I have recieved from all over the place, truly. Hopefully, once I rebuild my confidence in myself and my teaching I will dive back in but for now, I will keep thinking positive, keep my chin up and lean on those who love me the most.
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I met the lovely Chris on my Norway/Russia trip last year- camping, deer and lots of driving. He flew in to Sydney for a short visit this week and I just had to go and catch up.
Unfortunately for me, the Central Coast public transport decided to have a cow. After 4 hours travel on a rail replacement bus, I finally made it to Sydney Harbour and realised... there was no way I was getting home. SO, in the spirit of adventure, I booked myself into a hostel room overnight, the Sydney YHA and Chris and I hit the town. We did dinner and foudn a cheap pub crawl with fluro paint and eighteen year olds. Fun to watch, great time to spend with my travel buddy. Thanks for the fun big guy, see you in Canada eventually! So, I did it. I caved to the pressure of life and I have decided to take on a full time classroom position. I'm local, so it's all good but it is a stage 3, composite Year 5/6 class in a demountable classroom out the back of a school... where no one can hear you scream... I have kids with behaviour issues, disabilities and two that are considered 'needing extension' and are working at a year 7/8 level. Talk about taking on a challenge!
I can do it, though and it will certainly help me pay off this credit card debt faster. Plus, there are some super sweet girls who just love Harry Potter. I sense I have an 'in' with them already. Wish me luck! Unfortunately, all children must, one day grow up. That's me. I went into the bank yesterday to see just how the hell I am supposed to pay off this ever increasing credit card- a particular issue considering I haven't purchased anything on it in the past three months- and the woman behind the Help! counter was just beautiful. She went through my fees and interest rates- did you know there are separate interest rates for cash withdrawals and online purchases? And that transferring anyone money online from your credit card counts as a cash withdrawal? Yeah, neither did I. Considering one was raking in 18% interest and the other was at 25% it was no wonder I was dying a hard and horrible financial death. Anyway, the wonderful NAB lady sorted me out, fixed my interest rates a little and told me to 'head down, bum up'. Hopefully this theory eats away at the debt quickly.
So, following the advice of this wonderful, sensible woman, I got myself a tutoring job in Gosford. It's on the weekends- so don't ask me to come out, not only am I broke, I'm also working. But, it is certainly one way to kill the boredom- aside from resurfacing the parental's kitchen, of course. Anyway, just an update and a recommendation- check your interest rates and burn your credit card! |
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